my thoughts?

Year 2008,

My 2nd year in undergraduate program.

but things, are not going very well for me.

sometimes i find myself only able to talk to my love one,

only her, the silly gal understands me well.

i find it difficult to talk to other ppl,

not because there aren’t nice ppl around,

not because i hv communication problem,

but i juz coudln’t speak to any ppl,

anyone tht i’m not familiar with….

i felt difficult to open my heart to accept anyone tht is complately new to me.

i think the last good fren i had is eric when i was in college…

my best fren n room mate then in college :)

mayb it’s bcoz i don talk much…

im not gifted with a good sense of humour, or the power to attract listeners,

i often felt ignored when i speak..

mayb tht’s y i don speak much, coz no one listens…

so i better juz keep my mouth shut.

i felt safer tht way.

n tht i miss my secondary sch life even more.

i was quite well known tht time, ha!

n i enjoyed my successful secondary sch life.

i’ve learnt quite alot of things after i step into higher education life,

n reality is always cruel…

things juz don go according to your way somehow.

i’m not enjoying my uni life, yet perhaps.

i can’t find the passion to be involved in any uni activities,

not like secondary sch.

i don wan to stay at the same spot after finishing secondary 5 yrs..

i wish to move on n enjoy,

but i juz cant find the motive to do so…

i failed to get motivated.

i’m grateful tht i’m lucky enough,

to hv my family,

and a silly gal tht is willing to be there for me all the time.

i owe u my dear silly gal..

4 Responses to “my thoughts?”

  1. sinye Says:

    hey dear RY, i sometimes feel the same way as u do…. Just tend to rememeber the great old days n wanted to have the same sort of life here.But things always change n nothing is permenant . No 2 things are exactly the same .After i accepted the fact n things as they are i feel better n tend to enjoy life better here .I also discovered that if i’m too stubborn n keep on holding to the past i won be able to really try to live my life and to enjoy it..So i guess u can do that also. Who sed u have no listener??? If u don talk who’s there to listen??? Haha..see ya around…

  2. Lingwei Says:

    hey… i just came across and i happen to read this.. you know what, i believe everyone has their time like this. you don’t need a great sense of humour to communicate or attract people.. just mingle around with the bunch, i’m sure u’ll find ur click soon enough..it’s sad that sometimes we feel this way. but then, i’m glad and happy that u have someone special which u are able to talk to.. =) see u around man!

  3. JeeHuNG Says:

    brother, u forget me liao ar? haha… yuan lai u ane tong ku la… when u bk, find me yc la… we shud be able to talk to each other well ba… cos we are 23rd June’s member leh.. haha…

  4. jess Says:

    feeling the same here… maybe worse than u… but life really goes on…

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